thanks to all who have been so concerned about me(:
heh. im feeling much much better now.
and i look forward to going back to school tomorrow. :D

today's homework is horrible.
maths questions look like ancient codes.
i dont know how to do luh. im stuck at the first question alr.
asked kaixin, but she said she wasnt listening in class, instead she was doing SUDOKU(sp?).
LOL! rujun is stumped too. ah, i guess i have to give up. :/

i failed maths. badly.
EIGHTEEN over FIFTY.
wth. deonsus got darn high. 31/50.
jaslin got highest. 39/50.
i gotta WORK HARD(:

but science i got 24/25.
lol. so that's the good news. :D
i gotta thank jianzhong and junmin.
heh. jianzhong helped me take homework.
and junmin helped me copy the notes(:
although didnt finish copying but doesnt matter luh.
i understand got no time. :P
i shall copy from people who have finished tomorrow.

the funny thing is that though im sick,
i have the urge to do homework. :P
weird. :/

i hope tomorrow will be a better day.
so will other days after tmr.
i hope everything will be back to normal.

{ONE MORE WEEK}
i dont know if im looking forward to it that much.
i should be, shouldnt i?

#GERALDINE.

throw up ; throw up ; throw up.
that's the feeling i've had for the past few hours.
apart from the time that i had been sleeping.
my temp's going up. higher and higher.

doctor says i lack vitamins and rest.
gave me many many vitamins to eat.
and advised to rest more and drink water.
plus, i got other medicine. capsules somemore.

life's stressful.
too many commitments, too little time.
how can some people do so many things within 24 hours without fallin sick or even feeling tired.
and the point is not that they can finish so many things.
the point is that they can do it all so well. or at least do most of it well.
why cant i be like them? im totally breaking down, literally.
my body/system cannot take it anymore lah.
always falling sick at the WRONG time.
i wish i could do a little more.
ah, tearing myself apart.

原来这一切都是假的。
不该听到的我已经听到了；不该看到的也一样。
我想我也不能做什么，只能默默地流泪。

#GERALDINE.

boredbored.
in com lab. :P
doing some movie maker thingy.
mr lee's doing some indian thing.
speaking really FUNNY.
cos he said to do voiceover so the commercial will become INDIAN COMMERCIAL.
ltr still gotta do the photostory thing. :/
and got sectionals somemore.

im COLDCOLD.
haha. very cool weather today.
didnt rain though, surprisingly.

just now's lit test was okay lah.
but science test was badbad.
wed worse lor. got chinese test.
also got proficiency test.
now all the tests coming in. ><
tired. and not to mention, stressed!

#GERALDINE.

my mood today has been roller coaster luh.
up and down.
so darn irritated in the morning.
almost cried. THANKS TO SOMEBODY. :/
then after that got really bored with shopping.
yeah, and my sister irritated me again.
came back with ba kwa. haha. my mama bought.

i was happily eating, when my piano tcher spoiled my mood.
she came! D:
wth. and she made me play scales and sight reading.
the 2 parts of practical exams i hate most. -.-

and i just remembered,
tomorrow got science and lit test.
ALL I HAVENT STUDY! :P

thus, i shall go and study now. dont wanna fail. (touch wood.)
see you(:

depression

#GERALDINE.

band today.
distracted. and sick.
learnt that ada's playing bass clarinet.
poor hweejoo. D:
jiayou! i believe you can do well(:

got quite a bit of sectionals.
jingting transferred to euphonium.
could see that tinge of sadness.
even though she told me it was because she was tired.
it's always hard to have to start something all over again.
but we gotta persevere, and im sure with ample practice, she'll do well too. (:

didnt have combined after that.
just listened to annoucements.
then go home.

今天一直下雨，而我的心也一样，湿湿的...

#GERALDINE.

whee~
i have a junior! (:
she's cute. heh.
keeps laughing though. but she's still cute lah.
she can play the SO-DARN-LOW notes that i cannot reach no matter how hard i try.
so pro luh. the LOW F. she can reach! :P

i dont understand.
i was so happy ; then everything just fell apart.
i was so distracted in class today. i couldnt concentrate.
i tried to not think so much.
but i realised i cant cos im very very affected by you.
everytime i think of you, i feel like crying.
why?
maybe it's about time i woke up from this fantasy ; it's getting me nowhere.

#GERALDINE.

hah.
remedial helps.
somehow.
lol. cos ms chin can go slow slow. XD

anyw, today got some beep test thing.
ah, i didnt even complete 3rd stage. :/
im not a SPORTS person. -.-

MT de kou yu biao da.
junmin did very darn well! :D
all her chinese words so chimology de.
haha. i was second. then i didnt memorise lah.
so i asked rujun hold the book for me.
i was practically reading frm book. heh.
then i gotta do 2nd time. cos lai lao shi want me to memorise. :/

nothing special happened after that.
except that isella got her suan mei back. XD
cos they wrote sth to ms chin. heh.

#GERALDINE.

I GIVE UP MAN!
TOTALLY GIVE UP. :/

wth. i spent half an hour on my story and i only memorised THREE PATHETIC PARAGRAPHS? -.-"
haiyoyo. i dont wanna memorise le lah.

anyway, today was okay luh.
english did some reading thing.
then maths, as usual, got homework.
geog was funny. ms ng was like going thru the groupings.
then so much commotion. then she made us get into our groups and do a mindmap.
i anyhow write write. "POPULATION >> got high and low." then dont know what other crap luh.
then i handed up. and there was a funny conversation.

msng: you sure you want to hand up like that?
me: yes. cos nothing else to write.
msng: you sure or not? nothing else le meh?
me: dont have alr lah. i copied everything from behind the summary thing le lor.
rujun they all: got lah. the population density and blah blah leh?
me: huh? shen me dong xi lai de?
msng: what 'shen me dong xi'? you never listen in class ah.
me: ooh that thing ah. lol. okok. i go do new one lah.

heh. but actually i dont even know what the heck is population density. ><
just say only. :D

art was darn sickening.
draw some weird boxes stacked together.
then i cannot see any stupid shadows.
but the teacher insisted that there was. :/
and he somemore said "draw WHAT YOU SEE"
so weird lah. i dont see shadows and he ask me to shade in,
that's contradicting to what he said lor. -.-

chinese only got ting xie lor. didnt do much.
then 3 periods with ms chin.
err. yeah. she did all sorts of weird things. like make people stand at the back of the classroom.
eh. then cnt remember le lah.

had band. mr lum didnt come. so only mr png lor.
then played old comrades for the first time.
whoo. so fun leh, that song.
i could play when i was sitting down, but stand up is a totally DIFFERENT thing.
the moment i strapped on my tuba,my back was like going to snap.
then worse, i got no strength carry the tuba up.
so i cant reach the mouthpiece,
which means i didnt blow. :/

sigh.
i wish i can spend more time with you.
save the explanation, i understand.

#GERALDINE.

okay.
she really doesnt seem that bad.
and she smiled. (:
haha. lol. first time see her smile.

and her lessons today wasnt so bad. yeah.
i could FINALLY hear her clearly. XD
usually, i cant really hear what she talking about.
so i just "turn myself off". and i go to SLEEP. (with my eyes open lah. or maybe just lie down or something.) :P
but miraculously, today i managed to stay awake. XD

BUT, (see, everything comes with a price. :P)
i didnt understand what she was talking about anyway. :/
i mean like i understand some easy parts, then the rest is 'err?'
yeah. but i liked today's lessons. somewhat. :D

ah, maths test was damn difficult.
poo.
i think i can fail. it's like, i dont know a thing.
and the whole paper looked like some ancient script that im supposed to analyse and decipher or interpret. :/

english was just filing and seeing cheryl fox on the screen.
haha. cos we had some CNA news thingy.
yeah, ms mariati made us do this journal thing.
and cheryl fox was the newscaster. so the video started off with her talking and ended the same way.
so we like listened to her twice. yeah. then must do the thing lor.
then got back our diagnostic test results.
the compo i got 20 ; compre and cloze got 19.
:/

chinese we did letter writing.
funny luh. mr lua let us do this topic which ms kim did before with us last year.
it came out for sec1 end of year summore.
then we told him do before.
then the next qn, actually never do before.
but we also said do before.
and every qn after that also do before. XD
four qns leh. all do before.
then we thought no need do le, end up still need. -.-

history, angeline called the mr yeo STEFANIE!
LMAO. cos last time he said his pigeon hole the name is MR STEPHEN YEO.
then angeline heard STEFANIE YEO.
then dont know why today she called him stefanie. lol!

assembly was as usual luh. -.-"

i've misjudged you.
the real you seem to be way different from what you told me you were like.
you didnt seem like a bad person.
but now i know you arent good either.
i know it's stressful. but give everyone an equal chance,
that's what i've learnt. and see, it actually works.
i gave her a chance, i've learnt to accept and like her and her teaching.
yeah, and i now know well, she isnt that bad.
and you should know, you're not the best in the world. none of us are.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR LUM(:

#GERALDINE.

what exactly is RESPECT?

if you search in the dictionary:
VERB - 1. To feel or show deferential regard for; esteem.
2. To avoid violation of or interference with: respect the speed limit.
3. To relate or refer to; concern.
NOUN - 1. A feeling of appreciative, often deferential regard; esteem.
2. The state of being regarded with honor or esteem.
3. Willingness to show consideration or appreciation.
4. respects Polite expressions of consideration or deference: pay one's respects.
5. A particular aspect, feature, or detail: In many respects this is an important decision.

who actually DESERVES to be RESPECTED?
i dont know, actually. maybe because i've never thought of this question.
come to think of it, have i actually really respected ANYONE?

now, after much thinking, i've come to a conclusion.
in my point of view, people who deserves respect are those that will respect others.
i mean, if you want other people to respect you, first you must learn to respect others, right?
even if the other party is younger than you, he/she still deserves to be respected.
unless, of course, he/she did something that made us lose respect for him/her.
but that's a whole new thing altogether. :/

so, i think that we should respect others before we demand to be respected.

yeah, this is just basically how i feel.
if you dont like it, pretend you didnt see it.

#GERALDINE.

went shopping today.
actually was only supposed to go for lunch with my aunt.
at soup restaurant.

but then the temptation to shop got the better of me.
yeah, you know. *cheeky grin.
went to a shop that sell roxy ; ripcurl etc stuff. (not surfer girl, cant remember the name though.)
saw this nice top and bought it. hah.
dont care luh. nice jiu buy lor. XD

we walked ard in the hot sun.
the weather was warm. VERY warm.
but suddenly orchard like not so many people go.
ever since vivo city opened. :/
i dont know. heh.

lunch was great, btw. (:

i dont hate her anymore.
not now, not ever.
im gonna give her a chance. :D
perhaps, from my point of view, i think she's trying her best.
or maybe, i just pity her luh. :\
i dont know. but im not gonna hate her no more.

{SIXTEENMOREDAYS}

#GERALDINE.

okay.
let's recall what happened.

WED
went band prac. nothing special. i "cheated" again and played instrument. lol.

THURS
skipped stupid piano. :D
haha. went with yenling's to see doctor.
at city hall. lol.
while waiting, me, angeline and corliss went suntec to walk walk.
haha. angeline's stead came too.
ah, felt so BRIGHT. ><

FRI
got band again.
cant remember what we did.
(but can guess luh. sure is seventh night de.)
then after that, my dad decided to change original plan and bring me out to dinner.
SORRY BABE! last min change plan. ):
i reached home at 9++.
SO DARN TIRED!

TODAY
band again.
didnt play instrument.
so bored there i almost fell asleep. :x
but didnt. i very guai. heh. i listened to the specialist guy.
then no combined. but got footdrill. :/

it seems like my life now only involves SCHOOL & BAND.
nothing else. nothing special.
and im so tired every single day. well, this fatigue is killing me man.
not having enough sleep and having to cope with sch work. :/
KILL ME MAN!

#GERALDINE.

WHO?
-who is in the house with you?
my sister&julia.

-whose house did you last go to?
wah. very long alr. i think is jaslin.

-whose birthday is next?
err. MR LUM! lol. just saw on friendster.

-who was the last person you loved but not anymore now?
hmms...

-who do you hope will take this survey?
whoever wanna take then take.

-who did you last text?
MSN can? CEO lor. (:

WHAT?
-what was the last thing u ate?
the grass jelly inside the grassjelly soya milk. :/
(so long "explaination")

-what was the last thing you drank?
grassjelly soya milk. *looks at previous question.

-what is the closest thing to you that is blue?
my mum's blue jacket. XD

-what instant messaging service do you use?
windows live messenger.

-what is your fav colour?
ORANGE!

-what is your most used away message?
wait ah.

-what is your favourite website?
NCHS SCHOOL WEBSITE. LOL! no luh. blogger. XD

-what is your fav shoe brand?
err. i dont know. i dont care brand de lah. design nice can alr.

-what are you wearing now?
shirt ; pants ; underclothes.

-what song are you currently hearing?
i dont need a man ; PCD.

-what are you looking at now?
this quiz.

-what's ur msn nick?

geraldine. /}} whatever i feel like typing. {countdown: # more days}

WHERE?
-where do you live?
the island SIR STAMFORD RAFFLES founded.

-where is your phone?
outside.

-where do you sleep?
on my bed.

-where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
buy luh. then? steal ah?

-where did you get this survey?
MICHELLE TOOTY ANG. :D

WHEN?
-when is your birthday?
*stares at my URL.

-when did you last burn a candle?
my sister's birthday.

-when did you last see your dad?
yesterday night.

-when did you last eat something?
err. right after band. i walked to CP to buy food.

WHY?
-why does basically half the world have Friendster?
how the hell would i know.

-why do we have to go to school?
err. cos we're being forced to. besides, if we didnt go to school, teachers would be jobless. ;D

-why are you taking this survey?
why do you wanna know?

PRESENT
-is your hair wet?
no.

-is your handphone right beside you?
no.

-do you miss someone?
tuba counted? lol. yes luh.

-are you wearing gel?
no.

-are you wearing chapstick?
wth is that.

-are you cold?
nope.

-are you tired?
VERY.

-are you excited?
err. dont know.

-are you watching tv?
nope. how can i watch tv and do this at the same time? im not superwoman. XD

-are you wearing pjs?
no.

PAST
-recently done anything you regret?
err. not really.

-ever lied?
yes. :x

-ever stuck gum under a desk?
NO. that's disgusting.

-ever kick someone?
yes.

-ever trip over your own feet?
nope.

-ever cried so hard you almost threw up?
no.

TODAY
-have you cursed?
abit.

-have you yelled at someone?
yea.

-have you gotten mad at someone?
obviously.

-have you cried?
today ah... didnt cry. but yawn until tears came out.

-have you called more than three people?
nope.

-have you im'd more than 3 people?
er. no.

-is there anyone on your mind now?
yes! *grins.

-where is the last place you went?
NCHS BAND ROOM. lol.

-who is the last person you called?
my dad.

-do you like your mom or dad more?
depends.

-do you have any siblings?
ONE sister that can kill me just by talking to her.

-do you smile often?
yes. laugh more though.

-do you think that someone is thinking about you now?
i dont know. maybe(:

-do you wish on stars?
nope.

-when did you last cry?
i dont know..

you like your handwriting?
nope.

-are you a friendly person?
normal normal.

-who's bed did you sleep in last night?
my bed lah.

-what colour shirt are you wearing?
BLUE.

-do you have any pets?
my julia!

-what is the colour of your bedsheets?
blue.

-what were you doing at 9 last night?
err. on my way home from band practice.

-i can't wait
to go sleep.

-is tom on your friend's list?
HUH? i dont have a friend called tom.

-what's on your right?
POOH PILLOW! haha.

-ever cried youself to sleep?
yes.

-ever cried on a friend's shoulder?
dont know.

-song that makes you cry?
hurt by christina aguilera.

-are you normally a happy person?
yup.

-has anyone ever said "i love you" to you?
*erhems. you dont need to know.

-is your self-esteem low?
?.

-people u wanna sabo?
i dont know.

#GERALDINE.

# im sinking into depression. very slowly and quietly.
# very tired. very confused.
# can someone guide me? can i get help?
# i need a long long break.
# maybe an early night will help.

everything's just an illusion to me.
i cant tell what's real, and what's not.
cos everything, everyone's changing.
nothing seems to be the same.

{{dont stress me. i cant take it.}}

to everyone that i have displeased, im sorry.
to myself, i have nothing to say.
and to you, you'll never understand.
&&; there's nothing i can do.

maybe i still wont feel good twentyone days later.
it's a long wait. and i do hope it's worth waiting for.

{{it's a hard decision. you OR them?}}

it wont be fair then. but i really dont want to make anyone feel bad.
maybe i shant do anything. it will be a normal tuesday then.

{{and now i wish i didnt remember.}}

maybe if i did it quietly, it would be good for all of us.
&&; it would be a silent celebration.
&&; im thankful to all those who remembered it.

{{i need an answer. i cant decide.}}

silence.
peace.
VS
entertaining.
fun.

{{please tell me what to do.}}

#GERALDINE.

GRR...
i just dont get it.
fine, be it im stupid or whatever.
i STILL dont get it.

what the hell is wrong with you man?

yet to learn my ting xie.
sigh. it seems as though there's so much to do.
but so little time. D:
the guan bi zheng thingy i also havent memorise luh.
die alr luh. tmr got ting xie, thurs got mo xie.
not only must memorise, also must know how to write. -.-

anyw, the ying huo chong de meng seems to be a nice show.
i hope tmr can rush back to watch. lol. *crosses fingers.
the teresa very chio. haha. imm khim also. XD
hahas~

well, go learn ting xie le. dont wanna fail tmr.
heh. see you (:

{TWENTYONE DAYS}

#GERALDINE.

COUNTDOWN -

{TWENTYTWO more days! :D }

cant wait! (:

#GERALDINE.

okay. so let's see...

SUNDAY.
went out with michelle.
at first is go my grandpa house.
then go there also nothing to do.
so asked mich out walk walk. (:
anyway needed to buy maths textbook.
so went to orchard, since it was close to my grandpa house.
then walk and walk and walk.
but we bought nothing. just ate alot of things.

at first walk takashimaya.
then go to heeren.
then walked to cineleisure.
then to wisma.

walked so much,
nothing bought. -.-

TODAY.
morning was DARN COLD.
didnt wanna wake up.
but too cold and i couldnt sleep anymore.
D&T room on aircon somemore.
then literature we had to draw some willow tree.
lol. so funny lah. must draw dead cat. XD
mine still looked somewhat alive. :D

science lesson was darn funny.
ms chin was talking about atoms and molecules.
then the atoms powerpoint presentation right, the first page we asked so many questions.
i really didnt understand a word she was talking about.
it's like she's speaking in a foreign language man.
then we bombarded her with so many questions i dont think she know how to answer. :X

IT was...
urgh. i dont even wanna talk about it luh.
but fortunately i got nice people in my group. (:

i've learnt a new thing during chinese today.
lai lao shi can SING.
his singing not bad lah.
he show us this lyrics and ask if any of us know how to sing.
we all said dont know.
then he volunteered to sing for us.
wah. not bad. can go enter the project superstar?? XD

sectinals was spent on reading score and stuff.
since i couldnt play the tuba. D:

ohyea,
happy birthday wayne(:

#GERALDINE.

HUH!!
the doctor said i cant play my instrument for ONE WEEK! D:
wth.
i want to play my instrument!!!
i dont care luh. im just gonna play.
and if i dont feel well, then i shall ask for permission to rest?
lol. i dont know luh. if i dont feel well then say.
i dont wanna like go back to square one.
now at least i can blow the front part of seventh night.
ltr one week never practice,
cannot play again. (touch wood lah.)

DONT WANT DONT WANT!

didnt go to band today.
slept alot alot. seemed very very tired.
even after 3-4 hours of extra sleep, i still am tired.
maybe it's the medicine. i dont know.
but just know that i spent most of my day sleeping.
LOL.
slept at 12 + nearing 1pm.
woke up only at 4.15pm like that.
so long right?

and i miss my instrument. ):

#GERALDINE.

okay.
first things first.
im UBERLY tired.
and now SICK. thanks to not getting enough sleep.
tomorrow going to see doctor. yeah.

today mr lum said something to me that made me happy! :D
lol. he said my playing was quite good. (:
but he wanted to push me further. so i could play as well as dexter and theresa.
and he said i improved! :D
whee~
at least i dont think i've disappointed my seniors.
and i could play that high high F on that solo part. (:
only once but i felt good when i could play it luh. XD
and i think i've done okay. but can be better.
and i'll continue to work hard, for SYF, for OUR GOLD MEDAL! (:

i've been losing sleep.
over something. (duh.)
but i dont know if it's considered too serious.
and apart from my parents, i've only told zena the WHOLE STORY.
but i m really scared.
and i cry myself to sleep every night. so that i can get some rest.
i dont want to think of the consequences.
i may have to give up alot of things.
see, i cant help but cry. really.

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EDITED AT 9:53PM:

i dont know why.
but i feel i cant share anything.
i have to keep everything to myself.
yes. MYSELF. inside me, is loads of things.
i gotta worry about my studies, remember my band things, and try to solve my own problems.
you may think i'm fine.
yeah, RIGHT. on the outside maybe.
but on the inside i feel a couple of different things,
which you may never understand.

maybe that's why i never share how i feel.

#GERALDINE.

ah, still tired today.
didnt get enough sleep. ):

i've listened to 7th night so many many times that i can practically memorise most of it.
haha. but it's nice(:
today did some discussion of project work.
yeah, my group doing digestion in animals.
err. then the science quiz was quite easy luh.
and i cant remember anymore things. XD

lol.
better get enough sleep tonight.
tmr still got band practice. (:

NOTE TO SELF: coming birthday - wayne(15th jan)
get present if possible. :D

#GERALDINE.

busy busy busy.
busy busy busy.
tired tired tired.
tired tired tired.

yeah, that's all i've been feeling.
the start of the second week of school has been work work work.
im so totally drained of my energy everyday man.
sectionals on monday. woah. did a whole part of seventh night.
and my senior said i improved. at least i play now got sound. lol.
auditions for sec1s hapened that day too.
but i was having sectionals so i didnt see them play the instruments.

tues,
MPS CCA OPEN HOUSE! :D
i went back after that long assembly talk.
and it was RAINING. gosh, how to have netball?
but had practice anyway. heh. saw all the ex-p6-juniors.
alot go zena's school. only a few from other schools.
yeah, went there supposedly to have practice.
but i was afraid i couldnt complete homework.
so i just looked at them play while i did my homework.
lol. i didnt manage to finish maths luh. but i managed to clear the 400 word chi compo.
(:

today,
band practice.
was so afraid i wont play the piece well again. -.-
but okay luh. managed to play a little bit more.
played a little tiny bit of sunrise. alot of holding notes.
sustained my high notes. ouch! painful luh.
my cheeks and ulcer was like darn painful after that.
and my lips were numb. lol.
then filled up some stuff about ourselves.
and promised theresa i'd help her buy something. :D
haha. didnt get to play seventh night as a band though.
today was just sectionals. but it was fun, nonetheless.

went to west plaza meet my father and sis for dinner.
missed 109. -.-
so took 83 and changed to 89 instead.
so long sia. by the time i reached west plaza was about 8 alr.
haiyo, and i reached home at abt 9.

so now you know why i emphasize on TIRED and BUSY.
LOL! :D

&&; i hope you know how much you mean to me.
i'm so glad i have you. thanks for all the 'silent motivation'! :D
heh. just seeing you makes my day. (:

#GERALDINE.

i dont want this to happen.
i'm really scared.
this isnt the first time this is happening.
i dont know what's wrong.
i cant do some things right anymore.
maybe i was never meant to do those stuff.
can i just hide in my room forever?
i dont want to know the truth or face up to reality.
just keep me in the dark. cos im afraid i cant take it.

i cant cry. i cant let them know how i feel.
i have to pretend i'm okay. but i'm not.
i wish i was that little girl i used to be.
and whenever i was scared, i would go up to my mother and tell her exactly how i feel and why.
and at that time i told her practically everything.
but now, it's just weird. and she's no longer free to listen to what i say.
i want someone i can talk to. i want to share how i feel.
i dont want to keep it all inside myself.
one day, i'll explode and that might just be the end of me.

yeah. i do hope everything'll be alright.

#GERALDINE.

sigh.
i cant seem to make myself do the chinese hol hw.
cos im not in the mood to read the stupid book.
help! i cannot seem to go back to the "study mood".
lol. doomed doomed. haha.

monday got ms chin lesson.
SIAN LUH.
*curses. =X
mondays also got sectionals.
:D
hahas. i'd rather do sectionals, honestly.

i finish the stupid journal writing about myself.
mariati said write your journals.
i typed le then staple. lol.
lazy to write luh. XD

then today's just a very very boring day.
i've been self reflecting alot these few days.
on whether i have been too harsh with my words.
i havent come up with a conclusion yet.
but whatever the case, i think i shant use those words anymore. unless i need to.

im getting to become very very tired.
yes. i cannot stand waking up at 5.30am every morning.
then go school and study study...
cca days will go back at 6.30 ++. sometimes 7.
yeah. this aint working. im lacking sleep and i'm gonna fall sick.
but i've no choice luh. sigh.
holiday mood still not over. =/

if i've hurt you in any way, or upset you.
i'm sorry.
i guess i'll never learn.
never.

#GERALDINE.

today was okay.
had english with mariati.
she talked to us about herself.
yeah. that's all.

then CME tcher didnt come.
so we had 2 periods of free period.
then after recess is geog i think.
we went thru chapt 1.
okay luh. wasnt much.

err, then life education. the teacher is the xiang lao shi.
he came in and told us a joke. lol.
i laughed luh. haha.

after that is the history lesson.
the tcher is quite shuai. lol.
he also very funny. his rules very weird.
he say,"if u wanna use hp, just dont let me see. wanna do other homework, dont let me know. wanna talk, dont let me hear... etc etc."
haha. darn funny. his history lesson also fun lor.
at first he ask us what we think of history.
then alot of funny answers.
sleeping class, KNS, sian, diaox... etc etc.
then got one is dunno "what the hell" or whatever de.
then he wrote on the board lor. haha.
i enjoyed history today! :D

err. lit was mdm pey.
we did an activity she want us to do.
must write points abt urself.
then gladys they all write what cute, pretty...
lol. heard from kx. haha.

band was alright luh.
got orientation thing so we spent most of our time attracting sec1s.
some very ATTITUDE lor.
heh. cant be bothered with them. -.-

sometimes, it doesnt matter what you say.
cos in the end, your words still hurt me.
i know, you're tired.
but dont you get it? im tired too.
what's with the apology?
dont apologise when you dont mean it.
dont talk to me when you know you're gonna hurt me with your words again.
dont blame me for everything. im NOT the cause of everything.
what's the point of saying all this now?
it doesnt help at all. cos what's said is said, and what's done is done.
sorry doesnt change anything. cos i cant bring myself to forgive you.
you can say a million "sorry"s but if you dont mean it, it's no use.
dont you get it?
i just dont know what to say.
maybe some things i'll never understand, and some things i'll never know.
=/

&oh yeah, my seniors were great today. (:
they played well and stuff.
ah, i feel as though i have the world's best seniors! lol.
esp THERESA & DEXTER. lol. cos usually they will teach/train me. heh.
jiayou for SYF! :D

#GERALDINE.

::written on 030107::

whoo~
first day of being a SECTWO.
haha. okay luh.
our form tcher is our science tcher.
but she's WAY different from mspey.
(and duh, of cos i like mspey better. =/)
i dont know if i'd make it for sci this year lor. -.-
i hope will get good marks lor.

::written on 040107::

okay. i totally dont get what ms chin's trying to say.
her worksheet is totally pathetic.
2 pgs?!?
ms pey's got alot more than that lor!
her lessons are confusing and not to mention, boring.
i really got no confidence of passing science this year man.
=/
i wonder if ms pey will tutor us even if she doesnt teach us anymore.
lol. i really cant pass de lah, with ms chin's teaching. -.-
maths was a tad bit difficult as well.
after the hols, i seem to have forgotten basic algebra and stuff.
then now the homework is like crap. lol. ah, whatever luh.
mariati is our eng tcher, believe it or not.
last year teach art, this year english??
i really no confidence lor. D:
i think i need tuition. *faints*

#GERALDINE.

school's starting tmr.
sigh.
but i havent finished homework.
great...
whatever luh.
just scribble some stuff down and hand in tmr.
:D

went to watch charlotte's web with my sister today.
mich wanted to go.
but last min tell me cannot again. -.-
so i went alone. but i meet zena and jiayi to go buy zena's pencilcase first.
then they go take their edusave thing.
the movie was nice! :D
but the part where charlotte died was touching and sad.
charlotte said a weak goodbye to wilbur and then wilbur looked back at her with sad eyes.
then slow and sad music started playing.
wth. lol. so sad alr still play the uber sad song.

after the movie went to the salon at century square to look for my mum.
she go cut and straighten her hair.
then we sat there and waited for her lor.
cos at night we go for dinner at the soup restaurant.
the food was nice. but too much. haha.
i esp liked the soup. (:

then went to the pet shop to get stuff for julia.
bought a softer bed and a toilet for it and the thingy to put into the ears and blah blah. lol.
alot of things. XD
carry until wanna die. haha.

cant wait for tmr man.
wanna see the juniors. heh.
also wanna know who teaches us what.
haha.
plus, wanna see all my frens too.
;D

lol!
new school year, HERE I COME! :D

ohyea,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DENYCE! :D

#GERALDINE.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE(:

had a small countdown with my family yesterday. lol.
cos no party. ):
had sparkling grape juice. :D
hehe.

today's the start of 2007.
i do hope this year will bring lots of happiness and wonderful memories to everyone.
and i hope 2H`ohseven will get nice tchers. haha.
our form tcher's Miss Chin. whoever that is. XD

well, have a nice new year holiday! :D
only one more day till sch reopens so...
whatever the case, MUST HAVE FUN ON THE LAST DAY! :P

#GERALDINE.